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John James, founder of The Grief Recovery Institute

John W. James

Founder of The Grief Recovery Institute®
Co-Author of The Grief Recovery
Handbook & When Children Grieve

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Russell Friedman, Executive Director of The Grief Recovery Institute

Russell Friedman

Executive Director
Co-Author of The Grief Recovery
Handbook & When Children Grieve


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To be your son's leader, you need to learn how to deal effectively with your own losses! (Published 2/12/2013)

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I’m writing to you today because I lost my fiancé of six years, two years ago. I feel like my entire life has been a struggle. I had an abusive husband and many other difficult things. I met my fiancé just after my father died. Because of that, I bonded with him quickly, since that was a hard time for me. We spent every day together, at work, at home, everywhere. Very soon thereafter, we bought a house and farm and moved in together. I worried about him all the time because I knew that the combined stresses of work and keeping up the farm were getting to him. He left one night to close a gate on the back of the farm and did not return. I went to bed thinking he would come to bed when he got back. I woke up around three in the morning to see he wasn't home. I went toward the back of our farm to try to look for him and found him dead in his truck. His death was ruled a suicide, which I feel in my heart may be true, but it almost looked like an accident from the way it happened. It’s been two years and I am in therapy and on medication and it doesn't seem to help the roller coaster of emotions. I have never been content with anything since this happened and don't know if I can ever move forward or not be afraid to love again. I have a boyfriend who is a wonderful man, but every time he gets close, I push him away. Please help me. The only contentment I really have ever had was my life with my kids and Robert. Nothing feels normal now. Thanks for you help.


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  • December 2014
    Seattle, WA - Dec 5-8, 2014
    Dallas, TX - Dec 5-8, 2014
    Toronto, ON, Canada - Dec 5-8, 2014
    Jacksonville, FL - Dec 5-8, 2014
    Princeton, NJ - Dec 5-8, 2014
  • January 2015
    Phoenix, AZ - Jan 16-19, 2015
    Columbus, OH - Jan 16-19, 2015
    Mexico City, D.F., Mexico - Jan 23-25, 2015
    Monterrey, N.L., Mexico - Jan 23-26, 2015
    Atlanta, GA - Jan 23-26, 2015
    Bend, OR - Jan 23-26, 2015
    Los Angeles, CA - Jan 30-Feb 2, 2015

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